with nothing but your tshirt on

Hey, ohh, let me tell you no.
Oh baby.
Trying to decide,
trying to decide if I, really wanna go out tonight.
I never use to go out without you,
I'm not sure I remember how to.
I'm gonna be late gonna be late but,
all my girls gonna have to wait cause,
I don't know if I like my outfit.
I tried everything in my closet.

Nothing feels right when I'm not with you,
sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos.
Taking them off cause I feel a fool,
trying to dress up when I'm missing you.
Ima step out of this lingerie,
curl up in a ball with something Hanes.
In that I lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on.
Oh, with nothing but your t-shirt on.

Hey, gotta be strong gotta be strong
but I'm, really hurting now that you're gone.
I thought maybe I'd do some shopping,
but I didn't get past the door and,
now I don't know now I don't know if I'm,
ever really gonna let you go and I,
couldnt even leave my appartment.
I'm stripped down torn up about it.

Trying to decide,
trying to decide if I,
really wanna go out tonight.
I couldn't even leave my appartment,
I'm stripped down torn up about it.

Nothing feels right when I'm not with you,
sick of this dress and these jimmy choos.
Taking them off cause I feel a fool,
trying to dress up when I'm missing you.
Ima step out of this lingerie,
curl up in a ball with something hanes.
In that I lay.

Hey hey, nothing feels right when I'm not with you.
Sick of this dress and these jimmy choos.
Taking them off cause I feel a fool,
trying to dress up when I'm mising you.
Ima step out of this lengerie,
curl up in a ball with something hanes.
In that I lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on.
In nothing but your t-shirt on

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grounding myself till mid-nov
due to finals la kays,
dont worry maddy is not heartbroken this time =)
however im still free for lunches if you guys miss me too much
im just a call away
but please do not tempt me with
any movies,
late night outings,
clubbing sessions,
parties,
or any other activities that includes the word FUN.
i'll be MIA
miss me peeps!

*goodnight happy world,hello books!*

adios for now sister!

a wall of memories,
a thousand screams, fun and laughters,
you will come home soon
to a thousand more laughters, giggles and sisterly-connection-and-bonding-sessions!
have a safe journey



there, go and have fun with ting in aussie!




hugs and kisses!

happy 18th to jeshua!

1^st October 2008

Went over to queens with Jenny and Joann to hunt for jeshua’s birthday present.

Met up with Tracy, Deepak and Joshua. Then we all went around like crazy people trying to find a present for Jeshua who is a complete football fan. So, the ever oh-so-smart me dragged them to Nike and then the oh-so-smart me found a very nice red Manchester United tshirt@jersey. Whee!!! And the boys got him a Man U football!!! See, we know what you love, Jeshua!

Then we head over to jeshua’s house for the party. Jenny had a lil accident along the way but aiks nevermind about that. As long as we all got there safely!

Had loads of fun in the party. Ate and bullied the boys. And then we girls sit and talked. Then we played HEART ATTACK with HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL UNO cards…(=.=)’ and oh I played chess after two whole years of not touching any chess pieces. Ahh… im so rusty d =/ after I lost the game I abandoned the boys and ran away merajuk-ing to the girls. Haha…

The highlight of the night will be the cake cutting ceremony =)

We didn’t have the usual cake and instead we had two chocolate cakes with a dozen of lollipops stuck on it. Haha…Michelle d blackie, Lai Boon and Nigel’s brainchild XD
I nearly fainted when I saw the cake.

Hahaha. Not my usual gang but nevertheless this bunch of people had made my college life a tad more colourful. And I am happy to be able to know all this people. Im sorry that I haven’t been able to really get close to them. Im sorry that I haven’t been able to know what are their favourite colours and other likes and dislikes. But yes I am thankful that I met this special bunch of people, who are fun and funny XD

To Nigel: you are such a safe driver, I didn’t scream at all while you drive. Thanks =)

Here are some pics from the birthday party!

HAPPY 18^th BIRTHDAY JESHUA!

Have a blessed year ahead of ya!

its ironic that im the centre of attention when im not even the birthday boy =.=

you people just love me so much, dont ya?

And then after the party I went to UPR at about 12-ish? Wasn’t really in the mood. Didn’t even dress up or apply make-up. I felt so fugly and life-less that night. My mission of the night was to accompany wenlin. So i clubbed for a while with wenlin,mab and tingen.We were all busy walking in and out of the MOIS to find missing people. It was very POTONG STIM. So in the end, we gave up and went over to SS with Christ, Tingen, Carmen, and those three other dudes.

HIGHLIGHT OF THE NIGHT:

THERE ISNT A SINGLE DROP OF ALCOHOL IN ME LAST NIGHT!

whee...

i promise myself not to drink and I DIDNT! =)

Sorry to yuwei for abandoning ya =p

Then fetched tingen home, chilled at Green House for a while, and finally reached home at 5.30am. Ahh… this time mum nearly slaughtered me… And I woke up to the voice of an equally as sleepyhead as me and went out again at 11ish in the morning to gurney plaza with karmun and yuhting. I am a supergirl, aint i? =)

my eyebags are getting heavier! =(

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trying to get my piorities straight,
stop being a supergirl,
its time to settle down,
and start studying.
last chance for you to get this right.
do not screw this up.
you owe at least this much to yourself,
you deserve so much more,
you will get so much more.

we can turn back time =)

I spent the whole day with Karmun, Yuhting and Tannie.

'it really felt like old times, as if for just today, time stopped and returned to us that freaking awesome part of our lives when we were all still in high school, all gullible and naive enough to believe we have the power within ourselves to change the world.' quoted by Miss Ng Karmun.

Ahh yes indeed it really made me felt as if we were back in form 4 or was it form 3? ahh i really cant remember.

Hanging out at gurney from noon till dinner time..

just having lunch and catching movie together like the old days

the most amazing thing about friendship is when you know you can always pick up the pieces exactly from where you've left them the last time after everyone took separate paths and went on with their own lives. now that's d sweetest part.

thank you to you,
for just being you,
and for making me laugh myself silly.

we had our fair shares of disagrements and bitch fits but all in all we stuck by each other is because we've all accepted each others flaws.

thats tannie. he's still camera-shy after all these years.
to tannie: i've changed my mind about ya! ur still the same old tannie.

look at our pretty shoes!

i woke up to the sound of the annoying handphone at 10.40am. [ that means that maddy-da-great had like 4.5 hours of sleep nee.]
and to the voice of someone's who is equally as sleepy as i am on the other line who replies with 'wake up' to everything else that i said. (see karmun, look at all the things that we do for you!)
and i got ready in under 30mins. its really really really rare to see maddy sacrificing her sleep for anything =)

hey i wasnt late! tannie was the one who is late! he made me late! dont blame me people!

then we met up with karmun and yuhting.

kim gary>movie: eagle eye (i wanna name my son ethan!)>food court>big apple donut>goodall>dominos

well that's because yuhting needs to have at least 8 servings of food per meal and karmun needs 10. hence it was like a little food tour around pulau tikus/gurney area. XD

yes i really had so much fun catching up.
nothing changed.
and that's the best part.
today will definitely be one of those days which i would want to re-live again and all the memories will be playing in my head without a pause button.

I HAD FUN.
I smiled without caring if there was something stuck in between my teeth.
I snorted.
I laughed my 360 degrees laughter.
I was called 'meow'.
I was kinda like the old me again.

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updates on jeshua's birthday party yesterday coming up as soon as i get hold of the pics =)
have some patience peeps!

in search of old maddy

It was emo period





and then I've decided that I am done with feeling stupid and E-M-O over petty stuff which was never worth my attention in the first place.




so now I am gonna stand strong and tall on my own lil two feet,




cleared my head and heart of all webs and knots



and will start on a journey to find new inspiration and her old self once again.

=)

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currently listening to:

have i told you before,
that i am scared of thunder and lightning.
its raining heavily now and im afraid,
would you hold me tonight
and tell me that everything's gonna be alright?

to us =)

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO OUR FRIENDSHIP!
CHEERS!

to all the good and bad times
to all the joys and laughters
teasings and screamings.



















time flies =) and =(

and i totally forgotten about this day till someone reminded me =p

CONGRATULATIONS TO ERIC AND CHEW HSIA!

ahhhh
had a lovely time at the wedding just now
its so sweet.
the couple were dating for 10years d...
10 friggin years
ahh....they even brought me along when they go dating 10 years ago...
brought me to eat ice-cream
ahhh
pauline aka chewhsia (the bride) is like the sister that i never had.
well you see,
i have my own family and their family.
they are the family that i was brought up in
so i have all extra aunts and uncles and cousins and lil nieces and nephews who has no blood ties to me
but oh i love them loads...
*pics coming up soon*

EXTREMELY busy day

fuiyo...
i hadnt had any rest since i woke up this morning at about 8am? (means i had like 4hours of sleep the night before.)
SEE IM TURNING INTO AN INSOMNIAC PERSON D! (are you happy now deepak? =.=')

at 9.30am,
i had to attend disted's AWARDS AND SCHOLARSHIP PRESENTATION thang.
wasted alot of time sitting around doing nothing.
well i cam-whored and talked alot =p
and me and tracy were trying to scoop for any good looking guys but to no avail. (Disted only have hot girls =)
*oh tracy i know you've got your heart set on one d tho!* =p
everybody looked good in their formals and lil dresses
but lols everybody said i look like a 'tai-tai'.
hahaha i wouldnt mind being a 'tai-tai' though!!!

Then i had violin classes non-stop from 12.30pm till 4pm
ahh....
stress nyer....their exams are approaching soon!

CGL reunion at the beach from 5-9pm
ahh so much fun laughing and talking and i was FORCED to eat salad! (just because i couldnt count?)
hahaha nevertheless it was definitely fun to be seeing old familiar faces again.
those faces that usually greet me early in the morning with their 'stim' faces
and those who would make alot of noise when i was trying to sleep
ahahahah

N WE SANG OUR SCHOOL SONG LOUDLY dengan penuh semangat BEFORE THE CAKE-CUTTING CEREMONY!
that was hilarious!




next we headed to torch


then i dropped by at my cousin's bridal shower...


'whoa...is this ah-mac?' (mac is my nickname when i was young)
'wah...ah mac swee ki lor!' *smiles sheepishly*
'whoa....ah mac is all grown up already!'
'the last time i saw you, you were still so young!running around in diapers!'

ahh look at all the compliments i have gotten! whee!


hahahha after hanging there for about an hour or so,
maddy went over to wenlin's house!
we were both high (without alcohol eh) and were singing out our hearts belting our favourite old ballads away....
then we were joined by miss yeoh ting en
continued singing and emo-ing
then we played tarot cards and had our past,present and future read by miss tan wen lin
damn chun wei
ahhhh

i really cannot change myself in the name of love kays?
i have never found it worth it or sensible to change yourself for a guy
take it or leave it
if you feel inferior then you are just not good enough for me
*grins silly to my girls and smile snobbishly to the boys*

reached home at 1.30am?

ahh maddy have been a good girl again,
although she had like 3 invitations to club tonight
and oh boy she was VERY tempted
but nah...she decided to spend another quiet and quality weekend with those who matters to her
ahhhh
*beams to self again*

*pics coming up as soon as i can get my hands on em!*

happy sweet 18th to my fashion clone

HAPPY SWEET 18th to TRACY KHONG!
you are finally legal! can hit the clubs without giving the bouncers your puppy-eyed look and saying 'i left my IC in the car' hahaha




thanks for sending me warning smses early in the morning to ask me not to wear a certain piece of clothing that we both have.
thanks for gym (we should go together more often!)
thanks for crapping!
thanks for laughing!
thanks for partying with me!
thanks for skipping classes to do stupid stuff with me!
thanks for going late to college with me!
thanks for having the exact fashion taste as i am. (lets go shoppin!)
thanks for snatching my prom dress =p


















haha now we can see who pulled off dress better =)


im glad to have found you as my friend!
=)


with loads of hugs and kisses,

have a lovely birthday!

Why ladies are still single (adapted from traycee)

11 answers to this question.

1. Nice men are ugly.

2. Handsome men are not nice.



3. Handsome and nice men are gay.




4. Handsome, nice and heterosexual men are married.



5. Men who are not so handsome, but are nice men have no money.



6. Men who are not so handsome, but are nice men with money think we are only after their money.




7. Handsome men without money are after our money.



8. Handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat heterosexual, don't think we are beautiful enough.



9. Men who think we are beautiful, that are heterosexual, somewhat nice and have money, are cowards.



10. Men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some money and thank God are heterosexual, are shy and never make the first move.


11. Men who never make the first move, automatically lose interest in us when we take the initiative.

'Men are like a fine wine. They all start out like grapes, and it's our
job to stomp on them and keep them in the dark until they mature into
something you'd like to have dinner with.'

Don't you just have to agree?


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PART II (by madelliscious)

1. Ladies can never make the first move.

2. Ladies who are non-virgins are considered as USED and DAMAGED GOODS, on the other hand, MEN who are non-virgins are EXPERIENCED and MACHO.

3. A lady must always be protected by THE MAN.(hello we can defend ourselves thank you. all we need is just some cuddling and make-out session. we are miss independent too ya noe?)

4. A lady must always be somehow 'stupider' than their male counterparts. (stop acting dumb bimbo-tic! Girls shouldnt act weak just to attract some guys attention.)

5. To Men, the only two places a woman is worth her while, is in the kitchen and bedroom. (deepak, me n tracy will kill you soon!)

6. If a Lady is playing hard to get, the Man might get bored and lose interested because oh well she is playing hard to get. ( im not tiao keh!)

7. If a Lady appears to be too interested, she is labelled as a DESPERADO, therefore Men might also run away as fast as they can to the opposite direction. (see its wrong both ways)

8. Ladies spends too much money on shopping while its okay for Men to waste their money on some nonsensical gadget which they do not even know how to use. (i rather choose clothes and jimmy choos over some software programme!)

see thats why ladies are still single!

fallen

while searching for wedding songs,
(for my cousin,not me!)
i stumbled onto this song....
ahhh....
love is in the air

enjoy=)

what if

i've been searching forever for this song!

trying to smile

so we have had THE talk. we have been having butterflies in our stomach and were dreading this day. it made things rather weird. or maybe we shouldn't have had the talk. but i dunno. the damage or repair has been done. we have reached no conclusion. its back to square one. its okay. we've tried. but if things still cant work out all i can say is i've tried my best. all its left to the rest and the stars above. maybe im thinking too much. maybe we girls are just too sensitive. so yea im going with the flow now. letting nature takes its course? im letting things be the way they are.




BEST FRIENDS WILL ALWAYS REMAIN BEST FRIENDS NO MATTER HOW LONG THEY'VE BEEN APART.

signing off now,
leaving the broken pieces on the floor,
not finding the missing pieces,
standing in the middle of this maze,
all i can do is close my eyes,
and listen to the sounds of yesterdays.

of monkeys, mending broken friendships and deepest condolences

fyi oh just great i woke up to my mother's screamings that a monkey entered the house and threw our plastic apple out of anger. interesting no?

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the greatest conversations always happened in the car. i have had numerous of great conversations that i could replay time and time again in a car. today i talked to her. its so good to be able to open up to her. actually we were not 'talking'. we were shouting all our thoughts out. it feels so good to let it all out. its good to yell all these stuff that have been on my mind. i hate to keep things bottled up inside me. thats what you get when you put a person who is the exact replica of madeline and madeline herself trying to sort things out. to bare it all to the world. we were expressing ourselves with so much hand gestures and words...in english, hokkien, mandarin, bahasa malaysia. arms were flying. words were everywhere. yet it felt so good to let it flow. we were angry, frustrated, and disappointed at how things are now. we feel like over-turning tables and throwing chairs. but then again, there is the whole EGO issue. like its very hard to bring ourselves to shallow our pride and ego and make the first move to try to mend things now. (ego is bitter and fattening kays?) and there's the whole we-are-girls issue!


so now how should we solve this puzzle? how do we entangle this web of lies, confusion and misunderstandings that have been spun to keep things better but just backfired because anyone can see that its a no-brainer to lie and all the misunderstandings due to pride and feelings again?


cant things just go back to the way they are? i do not believe in fate when it comes to love and friendship. okays, i believe that chance and fate plays a minor role to spark things off but the rest is up to us to cultivate. friendship is a two-way process. dude i need your co-operation here. cant we just talk things through? im tired of all this acting. we need to sit and talk. four of us. period.



i need more ideas and suggestions on how to save a friendship. i refuse to give up on us just yet.


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and my deepest condolences to you, my dear friend.
im sorry that you've lost her.
its never easy to lose anyone but its the hardest to lose them when nobody see it coming.
she has gone to a better place.
and will be a guardian angel and forever watch over you and your family from above.
her time has come,
she had went up first and will be waiting in the heavens.
im here for you if you ever need anything.
im just a phone call away.
we are all here.
i'll keep you and your family in my prayers tonight.

why is the world such an evil place?
how dare those people just stab without conscious?
can you sleep if you've killed someone?
you've taken away not only a person's life,
but she is also a mother,
a wife,
a daughter,
a friend,
an aunt,
an employer,
a contributer to the society,
a person who can make a difference in this world in her very own way.

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*praying for the world to be a better place*
and for God to watch over all the people that i care about.

to darling ting, we all miss you!

ting dear dont kembang after reading this k?
muacks and i miss you too!



[00:44] zi hong: i miss cheah su ting!
[00:44] zi hong: lol
[00:44] zi hong: where's she laa
[00:44] ~madelliscious~* Marriage is just a license for sex while love is a reason used to get a chick laid. "*: I NOE
[00:44] ~madelliscious~* Marriage is just a license for sex while love is a reason used to get a chick laid. "*: i miss her too
[00:44] ~madelliscious~* Marriage is just a license for sex while love is a reason used to get a chick laid. "*: jz talked 2 her yday
[00:45] ~madelliscious~* Marriage is just a license for sex while love is a reason used to get a chick laid. "*: her internet got prob
[00:45] ~madelliscious~* Marriage is just a license for sex while love is a reason used to get a chick laid. "*: so u call her la





more nonsense.....


[00:53] zi hong: no ma
[00:53] zi hong: long time din see her d
[00:53] zi hong: she ar..
[00:53] zi hong: duno y la
[00:53] ~madelliscious~* Marriage is just a license for sex while love is a reason used to get a chick laid. "*: hahaha since july
[00:53] ~madelliscious~* Marriage is just a license for sex while love is a reason used to get a chick laid. "*: =(
[00:53] ~madelliscious~* Marriage is just a license for sex while love is a reason used to get a chick laid. "*: she's one of a kind
[00:53] ~madelliscious~* Marriage is just a license for sex while love is a reason used to get a chick laid. "*: dats y we all miss her
[00:53] zi hong: see her ni she'll be the one who'll make your day
[00:53] zi hong:
[00:54] zi hong: gotta admit
[00:54] zi hong: the only one i know
[00:54] zi hong: can't get another friend like that
[00:54] ~madelliscious~* Marriage is just a license for sex while love is a reason used to get a chick laid. "*: yups



lols....dont you regret for not coming back to penang during this break now? =p
luv you,muacks!